As you look into the future, what do you want for yourself?
Today 2012 is staring me straight in the eye. As I look back, I know what I don’t want anymore.
There’s a negative spirit that has been looming in my life. It needs to go.
I know that my admitting to having a gloomy attitude will come as a surprise to some of my friends. But I’ve got to be honest. In the past, I’ve settled for being pessimistic about my circumstances. And it has cast a shadow over me.
This year, I intend to focus more. I need to pay more attention to myself, and appreciate what I have been given.
The fact that I make my home in suburbia is more than a mere accident.
Over the years I’ve looked at the fact that I live in a small town with an almost abnormal level of sadness. I’ve actually wrestled with thoughts of being here as a
(Note the clever visual aid.)
I first took that photo sometime last spring. Back then I thought I was going to speak more openly about my life. But sometimes the courage to express one’s true feelings takes time to develop.
Sometimes my frustration has been understandable. Yet I’ve also come to recognize it for what it is. Although at times realistic–certain amenities are unavailable–my attitude has also been immature.
While in suburbia, I have done virtually nothing to broaden my horizons.
For the sake of my sanity, that has to change.
I used to wonder why my parents moved here before I was born. However a part of me realizes that I shouldn’t even care.
To paraphrase the wisdom in another, recent post: The time has come to quit whining about what never was, and work with what is. 
